Posts Tagged ‘meditation’

An Ode to ‘Magical Thinking’

Thursday, July 12th, 2007

Quick now– what do Tiger Woods, Michael Jordan, Bruce Jenner, Jimmy Connors, Arthur Ashe, etc etc have in common??
They visualize.

And not just “Oh I hope I’m gonna win” kinda visualization…
we’re talking systematic, strategic, detailed, intricate, point-by-point visualization. Tiger even admits to visualizing his complete swing, from beginning to end, multiple times before he even lays hands on the club.
Or how about your average church-goer? Praying for what they want, & if the [few] churches I’ve attended are any indicator, there’s often feedback “Please pray for the sick of our parish” & kudos for who’s shown recovery from last week (I prefer Fr. Michael’s joke, “what about the sick of the parish?”).
It’s clear that, if nothing else, belief via visualization &/or prayer is actively done by myriad very successful top performers, if not weekly church-goers. So the question is, how did all this get systematically categorized as ‘myth’, & the term “magical thinking” loosely translate as “bullsh*t”.

Somewhere in the last few years (perhaps synchronized w/ Bush 2′s presidency?) there has been a systematic attack on anything not deemed kosher by churches… eg, evolution, ‘secular humanism’, & that immense whipping-generation of the far right: “the 60′s”.

And yet, ask any down-in-the-trenches scientist, often called ‘technicians’ (because they gain their living actually doing the work rather than publishing papers about it), & they agree– postulates determine the conclusion. An immense number of ‘common sense’ & ‘widely known’ scientific “laws” aren’t so ‘eternal’ & self-evident, you know– not too long ago, “everybody knew” the world was flat & the sun orbited us… & ppl were tortured (or ridiculed, refused publishing, etc) for believing otherwise. Or how about all the “absolutely wrong” claims about meridians in the body, how the blood has ‘tides’ in sync with the moon just as the oceans do, or that open-skull (let-alone open-heart) surgery can be done with only a few accupuncture needles? All these were “hogwash” to scientific journals up to mid 20th Century… and yet are accepted “scientific fact” now.

Now, did the occurrences change? Nope. So why are they suddenly “true”? Actually, they always were true; just the Authorities hadn’t decided to Believe them yet.

So let’s explore what ‘Belief’ means. “Belief”, according to top philosopher W.V. Quine, is knowledge unquestioned, which has attained that status after rigorous testing, a la scientific method (hypothesis, deduction, experiment, etc). Which sounds pretty rigorous, and Quine is careful to show how this works in ‘normal’ people too, not just scientists. And yet, funny how Quine’s ultimate summation in The Web of Belief was this: “knowledge turns into [unquestioned] belief when the grounds of satisfaction are realized”.

So even a master philosopher, whose books are unparalleled in the field, recognizes the point– all of our scientific method, of building & testing hypotheses, still turn on a single, non-objective process: “are we satisfied”.

And so yes, it’s currently fashionable to slam “magical thinking” as thoughts, actions, beliefs about the outcome of an event, which have nothing to do and/or no effect on that outcome.

All I ask are two things:

  • spend an equal amount of time considering the opposite case. Ie, “could all those highly-successful, peak performers be ‘completely wrong’?”
  • try (visualization, positive affirmations, etc) yourself, with an open mind. Ie, don’t do them “knowing that they won’t work”.
  • …b/c if nothing else, you might experience something you haven’t expected, ie something ‘new’, which is always a blast. The thrill of discovery is the hallmark of a mind that is able to learn.
    …& more-importantly, by not “knowing that the outcome will be false”, perhaps you’ll avoid employing some ‘magical thinking’ (ironically enough) of your own :-P .

    Check out every single tennis, golf, etc “how-to” book. They all employ visualization. Scroll-up & re-read that list of top performers… they all swear by visualization. So why not try it, & see if it makes any difference to your own attempts to train behavior.

    Oh & btw– of the many experiences I’ve had with the “power of visualization”, let me list one: after shattering my tibia, I was told in no uncertain terms by two different doctors: “thigh-high cast for 6 weeks, & then ankle cast for another 6 weeks”. I didn’t like this scenario, & visualized up a storm, using techniques from “Zen in the Martial Arts“… & was walking, sans cast, in 5 weeks.

    Call it “magical thinking”, if you will… I like the doctor’s version: “how the heck did you do that?”

    Dunno. It Just Works.

    NYT & “Magical Thinking”

    Friday, January 26th, 2007

    I’m confused why NYT countenances such illogic, unless it’s their effort to balance their oft-castigaged ‘leftward-leaning’ Op-Ed pages.
    I deconstructed a similar article here.

    Here we go again. First off, the circular reasoning fallacy is repeatedly evoked. The author presents a scenario of “magical thinking”, then tacitly labels it [ridiculous]. Next they state that there’s ‘brain structures’ which somehow must create MT, but that can’t be evolutionary, can it [ie, denying physical evidence]? Then they show that we can fool ppl into MT-based behavior [a similar test, "can we fool tax experts into giving wrong answers", is done each year by Better Business Bureau; they call IRS & ask 20 Agents the exact same question, & get 20 different, usually wrong answers. Oh wait-- is this MT too??].

    Then they move right into the perfect example of circular reasoning: “The question is why do people create this illusion of magical power?””. Sorry, did we accidentally neglect how Tiger, Jordan, Lance, Jenner, & etc top peak performers all swear by visualization? And that there’s been multiple double-blind tests confirming that visualization not only helps, but is *essential* to peak performance?

    Funny– we all recognize false choice fallacy when Fox News rigs one of their frequent polls (cf. Colbert’s lampooning): “Question: Are you for Supporting the Troops, God, & Country, or Treasonously Retreating from Iraq?”

    So why aren’t suitable options made visible here? Perhaps “Magical Thinking” and/or “Magical Power” do in-fact work, but these psych’s & shrinks aren’t very good at measuring it? Not to mention, that psych’s & shrinks have historically been labeled ‘fuzzy science’, & thus are particularly antagonistic to intuitive paths to knowledge.

    But it’s particularly jarring when these same ‘clinical psychologists’ and/or university researchers pretend to be objectively studying the matter. Fer crying out loud, wouldn’t the very topic they’re studying (ie, how belief affects physical world), be potentially undermined if they’re starting-out w/ the assumption it doesn’t work?

    By the logic they’re using, it’s not implausible to say they’re actually undermining their own experiments. By ‘believing’ MT doesn’t exist, they affect both their test-cases, as well as their logic itself.

    I’m esp. amused that they finish-off the article w/ a list of psychiatric disorders which “MT could lead to”, coupled w/ discounting evidence as “coincidental”. First illogic, then ‘you’re crazy”.

    And note they carefully distinguish MT from religion, ie “These habits have little to do with religious faith, which is much more complex because it involves large questions of morality, community and history”. What silliness; the average fervent church-goer isn’t thinking of any of those things when they pray… they just want their prayers to work (& the lectant usually gives praise the next week if/when they did).

    Hmmm. Closed thinking, hostility, & church-banner waving. Since when did the neo-cons care about ‘magic’? You’d think they were on shaky ground; “faith” in their not being “left behind” sorta sounds like MT to me.

    Notes on the ‘life-sucks’ moment…

    Saturday, July 15th, 2006

    Here’s a little something I worked-up for a workshop some years back:
    Ever have that moment when ‘life sucks’? When everything seems just ‘too-much’, when you just wanna give-in?

    Sure you have. it’s normal; it’s a valid part of the human condition (“human”, b/c you can spend a whole heckofalot of time futilely waiting to see a cat ever act this way :-P ).

    And if “life-sucks” is part of the human condition, so is its opposite — ie, getting out of that state-of-mind, & [back] into “life-is-great”.

    Let’s start w/ a reality-check– why not stop, take a second, & check which side of the ‘classical divide’ you’re in right now:

    • is the glass 1/2-full? -or-
    • is the glass 1/2-empty?

    Or if that seems too silly or arbitrary, try instead to see if you can say “5 nice things” right now. Doesn’t matter about who, & you don’t have to ‘share’… but if you can say them aloud that can help a lot to make them more ‘real’.

    So what did you get? ’5 Nice Things’, ‘Glass is 1/2-full’, everything great? Well then, off with you! You’re doing great, so go grab some sun, or catch a movie… The rest of us here are going to explore this a little further.
    Okay, where were we? The first thing to realize about the ‘life-sucks’ frame-of-mind, is it’s just that– only a frame-of-mind, & a temporary one at that.

    How’s that? Well, it’s literally impossible to always stay in a ‘depressed’ state-of-mind… for example, if you shove your face in front of a butterfly, a giggling baby girl, or a clown, it’s very hard to stay depressed. Similarly, if you practice ‘Inner Smile’… ie, ‘fake it’.

    Which is why, when you’re depressed, you often [unconsciously] try to avoid those happy things… some part of you wants to sit in that unhappy energy, wants to wallow in it, b/c it’s getting something from it, some kind of validation from it.

    Well, that’s all fine, & even ‘normal’ as well!

    However– I submit to you, the part of you that’s getting validation for wallowing in depression, is not you.

    Here’s a reality-check– what do you ‘sound like’, when you say (or think) negative things, eg. when you’re depressed? Er, maybe sounds like that person who was depressed when you were a kid? Or maybe like that parent who always gave you a hard time? Billionaire Larry Ellison told an interviewer once, that even in the midst of some of his greatest successes, he always keeps hearing his dad’s voice in the back of his head, telling him “you won’t amount to anything”. Funny how that works.

    Next question: Are you pretty certain “things will work-out fine”, or are you spending [lots] of time delineating all the various ways it won’t? Don’t be like George in “Grey’s Anatomy”– walking-in, he already knows he’s going to get the short end of the stick. So he brings that ‘losing’ face forward, & thereby literally encourages everyone to say “no”. Basically, a ‘self-fulfilling negative prophesy’.
    I had a martial arts teacher once who literally would say, “if you beat up a masochist, you’re doing them a favor”. Er, not to say that this isn’t being completely amoral, or even psychotic, but there is a bit of useful truth in that– namely, the Victim is actually setting-up a world-picture that the world really does suck… & so they are very validated when it turns-out they’re ‘right’.

    Consider a classic portrait of frustration– a perennial victim, amidst a string of [good] luck. Listen to them, & what do you hear? Not, “Ohmigod this is sooo terrific!” Nope, you’re going to hear “this won’t last” or even “I’m going to have to pay for this later”.

    Again, funny how that works out.

    Don’t confuse this with saying “blame the victim”–
    Instead, realize that you [and only you] have the power to change your mental state.

    And so if you know all this, & yet still keep playing the ‘victim game’, then there’s obviously some major validation happening for you, in that game.

    • maybe you get lots of attention, ie. sympathy.
    • maybe it makes you feel ‘free’ of responsibility for your actions.
    • maybe you don’t want to feel guilty about being happy, when your family all [act like] victims too.

    …whatever it is, you’re letting these ‘victim positives’ outweigh the ‘true positives’ of walking-around w/ an actual smile on your face.

    Or perhaps staying in a victim-game is just inertia– like how getting your ‘body in motion’ can be quite a trick, when you’ve just let it sit for years & years.

    So let’s try some leverage on the ‘victim game’:

    Ask: “how good would it feel, to wake-up happy? free?”

    & some reverse leverage:

    Ask: “how terrible it would feel, laying on your deathbed, & realizing, ‘oh man, I lived such a depressed life, & i didn’t have to!!’

    …Whatever you do, don’t keep playing the ‘Victim Game’… unless you’re enjoying it. Or rather, enjoying not enjoying it. :-P

    I Believe…

    Wednesday, May 3rd, 2006

    I believe we’re all completely free, b/c we’re completely responsible for who-we-are…

    I believe no one ‘makes’ us do anything; we always have a choice [the foundation of mysticism].

    I believe ‘feeling pissed’ is just someone else’s energy (attention, expectation, judgement, competition, and/or ‘they-know-better’) in our space. Thus, getting un-pissed requires getting rid of that energy… & not getting pissed means not letting it in in the first place. But–

    I believe it’s basically impossible to ‘keep’ ppl from dumping on you; you have to deal w/ it on your own end.

    I believe all your ‘needs’ must be resolved from within, else you’ll always be in some state of “need someone else to change”… which is a recipe for disaster. People might (temporarily) change their behavior, if you hound them… but they won’t change how they feel, & they most definitely will not change who they are, just b/c someone else ‘needs’ them to change.

    I believe w/ most ppl, one can learn to be less sensitive, less ‘available’ for their judgement/competition (competition = “You’re not okay exactly as you are; you need to change”). But with others… just like the bullfighter, all you can do is ‘get out of the way’. Expecting yourself to be ‘impervious’ (ie, “blown all your pictures”) at all times is just silly; even Jesus (Buddha, Lao Tzu, etc) occasionally lost his space.

    I believe what you do & do not know about somebody else has zero effect on your own ability to change & to grow. If there is a dependency on someone else changing for you to change, that is co-dependence & really gets you no-where. (this, fwiw, completely negates the validity of born-agains, & born-again-like’s such as Scientology, est/’Landmark Forum’, & various other ‘multi-level marketed’ philosophies).
    I believe there is no such thing as “bad experience”. The only bad experience is regretted experience, b/c then you’re not mining it to its deepest potential. You are, every day, the sum total of everything you have ever done. Your life-experience is your ‘pearl-of-great-price’, & nobody anywhere has your ‘special blend’. To try to ‘forget’, or ‘pretend’ something didn’t happen, is just a natural tendency that occurs when we haven’t completed our integration process… in other words, denial.

    One of the most overwhelming, if not worst, experiences happened to me at Tae Kwon Do when I was 16yrs old. The big black guy had me lined-up, & threw a murderous spinning back-side kick. And me, in my infinite stupidity, tried to back-away (never back-away; always dodge to the side). He nailed me, knocked-me-out right thru my pads, slammed me up against the wall. I was unconscious before I hit the floor. & when I woke? Little Master Na, leaning over me shaking his finger:

    Master Na: “Good experience!!”
    Me: “Huh? (Are you kidding me?!)”

    i wanted to cry, to run, to die… but mostly to breathe, which felt like fire.

    But you know what? years later, I realized something– I was a lot less afraid about getting hit. Why? b/c I’d been hit before, really hard, knocked-out standing-up… & I wasn’t dead. I’m still walking-around. & I believe– that’s actually really really empowering.

    I believe “true needs” are fundamental… like food & water (but even those are flexible, if you train yoga). Everything else is some level of ‘want’. Kind of like Id & Ego.

    I believe a really powerful ‘way-of-living’ goes like this:

    1. Choose your outcome
    2. Work towards that goal in all interactions, &
    3. Bite-sized steps [cf, Pryor's Don't Shoot the Dog]

    But you know what? Sometimes if the mind is in a bad habit, no amount of ‘good techniques’ available will help pry you from that bad habit. You’ll just feel frustrated, knowing what you “should” be doing, but feeling powerless (or at least demotivated) to actually do it.

    Example– my taiji teacher is highly skilled at repatterning experience… from visualization, projection, induced healing, etc… & once accidentally slammed his toe w/ a pickaxe.
    -We all eagerly asked, “which [pain-reducing] technique did you use?”
    -He smiled ruefully. “Pretty-much, leaned-over, grabbed my foot, hopped-around & yelled ‘Owwwww!!’”
    We’re all human.

    I believe there’s a panopoly of tremendously powerful modalities which are extremely effective for changing Who-You-Are. In fact, there’s so many now, all equipped with profuse writings & capable teachers (who actually want you to learn), that there’s really no excuse for sitting on your ass, if you’re unsatisfied w/ yourself. Unless you’re not sure ‘which’ to choose. And thus…

    I believe, first & last, you must follow your Own Intuition.

    I believe ‘baggage’ never stopped anyone from having relationships; just look at how many guys on death row have girl-friends(!!) Instead– ask yourself are you ready, regardless of what everyone else thinks. When you are, you’ll find someone else, toot-sweet.
    I believe using empowering metaphors ‘magically’ changes the world (or at least the one around you) into a better place. And if it doesn’t, I believe I won’t notice :-)

    I believe I’m done.

    where the Consciousness Movement went wrong

    Friday, December 9th, 2005

    So back to why the discussion of “ego” has been ‘programmed-out’, if you will, in many of the western intuitive/meditative disciplines today.

    The reduction of Ego is systemic in traditional Eastern training– you shut-up, & practice. The Teacher is Right, so again– shut-up, don’t question, & do the same [basic] training, over&over&over. And in the same way that this kind of ‘basic training’ often helps you break-down bad [physical] habits — such as standing-meditation for hours teaches the body to stop using hard muscular force (by dint of painfully screaming muscles) — a similar mental submersion of one’s will to that of someone else is a very effective technique to diminsh one’s ego’s ‘lock’ on one’s personality.

    But we in the West have no patience for that. If only i had a nickel for every Martial Arts Teacher who said, “traditionally you’d have to practice [this technique] for a year before you get the next one, but we teach you all 3 the first day”. IOW, “forget all that ‘mental’ stuff, & let’s get to the ‘good stuff’”. How many of you have gone to Yoga or T’ai Ch’i classes, whose Teacher never even mentions the word ‘meditation’? Well, this is not a ‘win’.

    Nevertheless, with all the excesses racked-up by Guru’s in West, the whole idea of the guru-chela relationship is viewed with some suspicion… & for good reason. We would rather to treat our Teachers initially with a bit of deference, a bit of respect over time, but certainly not ‘putting-aside’ our own ego’s, thank you very much. But perhaps we’ve thrown the baby out with the bathwater?

    Actually, I think it’s more of the lingering residue of Hubbard & Erhardt, whose mental beliefs still can be found all over what’s left of the Consciousness Movement. Those two did a startlingly good job gleaning some of the more powerful mental practices of various eastern spiritual disciplines, combined it with some military boot-camp confrontational tactics, & invested it with a tremendous load of obfuscatory, pseudo-mystical belief.

    On the one hand, many of those techniques are effective, even quite powerful. But on the other hand, the [schools] in which they are taught often turn-out ppl more messed-up than when they started… as much psychosis, if you will… but now with a whole lot more mental decisiveness, “Certainty” if you will, as well as unstoppable belief in their inner ‘Rightness’. Their egos, as Chogyam Trungpa, would say, have been “reinforced by spiritual techniques”.

    I’d love to get a similar nickel for each person I’ve met who after year(s) in a meditative community/discipline, comes-out with an (insufferable) conviction of their own Rightness, & a huge interest in sharing it with everyone around them. Perhaps Erhardt’s masterstroke was tying-together his students’ conviction in their own ability to “Get It”, with the number of fellow students they’d recruited.

    I always want to say, to those who come to my door hoping to save my Immortal Soul, “I’m so very happy you’ve discovered Truth or Spirituality; I’ve found my own too, let’s share what we’ve learned with each other!” But that, unfortunately, only results in them smoothly switching to another of their well-rehearsed scripts, along the lines of “Your Truth isn’t any good; ours is the Right one”.

    Alas. I’ve read a few books, been in a few schools, ‘been meditating for some years… I bet we’d've had a fun conversation… if it only could start.

    the Test of Truth

    Tuesday, August 9th, 2005

    in The Chronicles of Thomas Covenant, The UnBeliever (Stephen R. Donaldson; terrific, a close second to LOTR imho), there is the concept of the “Test of Truth”.

    basically, using knowledge/wisdom/experience (or “lore” for short), the Tester questions the Testee… to determine what is True. not if something specifically is ‘correct’ or not, objectively verifiable or whatever… but rather if the person is True.

    there is a correlate in the ‘real world’:
    What do you do if you don’t trust your shrink?

    this is a fundamental question, which boils-down to–
    – is it the shrink who is fucked-up, or
    – is it you?

    if you break it down into “information” and/or “technique”… then that is separate from personalities, & you can learn that from many different ppl. or in other words, it could be that shrink who’s fucked-up, so “go get a second opinion”.

    but if it’s a question of something core… then it’s going to come up again & again.

    so even then, you don’t have to ‘worry’ about it…
    …unless you keep leaving & leaving.

    the 12-Step programs (AA, NA, Al-Anon, OA, SA, etc) have a concept called “pulling a geographic”. iow, you leave, & (hope) that you ‘leave your troubles behind’.

    unfortunately, that’s not how it works– the troubles were inside of you, you carry them with you, & thus you’re just gonna ‘find’ them again, in wherever new town you end-up in.

    {…to be continued}

    the ‘Four Practical Truths’

    Tuesday, August 9th, 2005

    so, Buddhism has an incredibly-huge canon of texts, myriads of schools, & a gen-u-wine Enlightened dude wandering around singing its praises.
    Despite all that, Buddha found it useful to refine his philosophy into a simple, easily-digested mouthful, a la “Four Noble Truths”:
    1) Life is Suffering
    2) Suffering is caused by Desire
    3) Desire can be controlled
    4) Desire can be controlled by the 8-Fold Path.

    …but that’s hoary & Eastern & who knows what that ’8-Fold Path’ is, anyway?

    …so w/o further ado, here’s “The Four Practical Truths” for the Practical Mystic: {with apologies to Buddha}

    1) Life is Great
    2) if Life Sucks, there’s just shit in your Space
    3) you can clear (energy/pictures/beings) from your Space, -and-
    4) Growth can be managed via the 4-Quadrant Path

    spiritual competition

    Friday, August 5th, 2005

    …is when you say “my school is better than your school”
    or “i know more/better than you”

    …but the best is
    “i’m oh-so-cool b/c i meditate & stuff”

    Chogyam Trungpa calls this the “golden chain”, & is the last (& hardest) egoic barrier to enlightenment.

    i call it the “new age curse”, & i see it everywhere, here in the Bay Area.

    or as this old drunk told me, as we narrowly missed being mowed-down by a volvo while jaywalking on Telegraph,
    “see that bumper-sticker? ‘Visualize World Peace’.
    “You gotta watch those new-age bastards, they’ll run you down soon as look at you.
    “I’ve had rednecks, school buses, even Hell’s Angels stop & let me [jaywalk] in front of them… but not those volvo-driving bastards…
    “they’re ‘me-first’ all the way…”

    God Bless you, Mr. Drunk. In vino veritas, or whatever. (“in wine there is disk-management software”?!) :-P

    head up butt? the “growth period” defined

    Thursday, August 4th, 2005

    so, the meditation school i attend has this concept of a “growth period”.
    it’s like when everything seems “just fine” but you nevertheless have this annoying tendency of walking into walls.

    another way of putting it, is that your spirit (if you believe in such a thing) & your body (we’ve all got one of those) are just at different ‘times’ today. It’s as if one just woke up, while the other has already finished the daily chores & is off to bed.

    when you feel kinda ‘psyched’ but sluggish, your “spirit is ahead of your body”. we’ve all felt this after finishing a tough climb, a long project, or [finally] getting off the phone w/ mom. it’s like we have the creative energy to go for ‘miles’, but yet can’t seem to make our body move.

    when you feel energized but sorta brain-dead, that’s when your “body is ahead of your spirit”. This can happen to ppl who drink coffee at nite, experience a sudden shock, and/or are having ‘hot flashes’. we can’t seem to go to sleep, but can’t seem to do anything creative either… reading a book, watching a movie, ugh– everything ‘bores’ us pretty quickly.

    {tune in later for some tips/tricks on dealing with growth periods}.

    so all that sounds like fun, right?
    er, why bother meditating, anyway?

    all i can say is
    - after a pretty depressing childhood
    - years of attending shrinks
    - a college-life which cemented a pattern of severe up’s ‘n down’s
    - a series of post-college years spent bopping from admin (secretary, not system) to admin job, overqualified & underpaid
    - the requisite series of bad relationships
    - even a swing thru the Erhardtian consciousness movement & Tony Robbins

    …nothing, & i mean nothing has got my head on straight like plain ‘ol meditation.

    …& that’s just the ‘work’ part. ‘fixing’ yourself, if you will.
    meditation is also fun– it can take you places wouldn’t've believed possible. i used to live at a veggie commune, so i’ve done my share of psychotropic experimentation, & i’ve never hit a state [back then] which i’ve not been able to get to w/ meditation…

    …plus, there’s no hangover in the morning. :-D